Fatherless, motherless hopeless faithless
Born breaded delivered without a birth right
Born with a plastic spoon on the mouth
Denied the ripe fruits of a surname
Outcast ousted out of the family
Bastard banished bullied with abominations
Identified without any traces of identity
Rooted at the buttress roots of the forsaken family tree
Enslaved captivated at the cells of the family slave trade
Chained Charmed flirted from hand to hand for free
Tossed passed rolled from homestead to homestead
Befriending insults,swears and curses cursing me
Coughing,spitting,vomiting onto my purified ears
worthless taken likely for granted
Left me quizzed in a maze of wander
Why all of this hate channeled towards me?
Why all of this rage of horrific hate manifesting before my eyes?
Why all these beatings penetrating my body with piercing pain?
Why all of my brothers not punished and beaten over nothing just like me?
Why all of the pain is inflicted on me?
I wonder,wonder and wonder into a dark room of mysterious mist
Till i get lost into the wonderful wilderness wonder of the stormy mist
All the mist of confusion consumed me
paralysed me into a paralysis paralytic
Smoke playing tricks with my crystal blind eyes
Started swimming at the deeper end of the shallow waters of suffering
Cried,called and tried to grab for motherly love
Motherly love despised me
Motherly love abandoned me
Motherly love stripped me naked of my voice
Motherly love failed to recognise my voice
I then seeked for fatherly love
Fatherly love gave me an undespeakable eye
Fatherly love never breathed the same air as mine
It built parallels crafted parameter faces of walls around me
I widely brightly switched on my eyes
I woke up from my deep slumber of façade fantasies
To realise that ,i was sheep among lions
To realise that,i had blindfolded ,brain washed reality
of that i was the illegitimate child
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